Friday, September 27, 2013

Bear with me....

Yesterday afternoon was my first official I'm-so-pumped-up-and-excited-for-the-marathon round of obnoxious smiling and happy tears....while sitting in the Target parking lot. I'm really a weirdo, accept it. 

Last night was also the first official I'm-racing-a-marathon-in-a-week-I-really-am-questioning-EVERYTHING round of obnoxious short tempered snarks and sobbing session. Lucky this one wasn't quite as public. 


I'm not telling you this to make you feel bad or anything, I'm telling you that I am currently in second D of the stages of grief: taper edition...I'm telling you this because I'm a human being. I feel like we get caught up on OMG-bloggers-are-not-human-they-never-have-a-hard-time and well, I'm letting you know that isn't the case. 

I'm going to make sure I relax and take some time for me, and I'll be good. Hell I'll probably be having another one of those obnoxious smiling fits jamming to "wake me up" by the end of the day. So goes taper people, at least in my little world. I've worked incredibly hard to get to this point, that point where I am actually going into a marathon as a race....not against some BQ time, not against another runner, but against myself and what I know I am capable of. 

I've accepted that it's time to trust my training, and trust myself, trust the taper...

I've also accepted that it's time for a taper snack....yeah I definitely embrace the food part of taper. Wholeheartedly. Pardon me while I go inhale some Starbucks, goldfish, and a lara bar. 

Roller coaster days (not just during taper)...
what's something that you take time to do for yourself?

Thoughts on bloggers being seen as fake because they only share the high points?



13 comments:

  1. I can only imagine how you feel considering I went through about two years of a taper LOL. What works for me on days I really wish I could go run a thousand miles is remembering it's only short term. It's ONLY two weeks. After your marathon, you'll rest and get RIGHT back into it. It's ONLY 14 days. Half a month. And it will come sooner than you know it will so hang in there! I know a lot of times when I write down my thoughts whether it's emotional, physical, or just writing down things I've been wondering lately... It gets my mind off of whatever is causing me to have major anxiety. You trained smart and hard. You're going to KILL it.

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    1. You had a long wait but you are coming back- this I know and have faith in! You're kick ass, and thank you for all your awesome support Lauren!

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  2. The hay's in the barn lady. You've done your training and you can be taper grouchy or as happy as you like. You earned it!

    Thanks for keeping it real with the blog. I do think most of us like to stay positive on the blog most of the time but every now and again you gotta let it out. I don't really like to air dirty laundry but then again, once in a while, it's nice to know people out there have the same poop issues you do. ;)

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    1. Like I said on your post yesterday...SHIT HAPPENS :):):) hahhahaha

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  3. I'll be taking taper cues from you Laura, starting mine on Monday. I guess I just need to decide which parking lots to let it all out in :)
    I must say that you have me excited at the mere mention of taper snacks...Doritos and Guinness anyone???

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    1. Target parking lots work well, but if you don't have a target-- any place you like to spend money will do...

      Guinness, yummy.... can't wait to carb load with that all week

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  4. You are only human and you have worked so incredibly hard that it's natural to shed a few tears. I think the nature of marathons is to provoke some sort of crying episode whether it be during taper or the race itself. I cried so much elading up to my 1st marathon and then I cried when I finished Philly last year. Oh, and after crossing the finish line of a local half last year where I PR'd. You are not alone. :)

    A blog is whatever you make of it and I like to read blogs that encompass an array of feelings. No one is happy or content 100% of the time. Keep on being real!

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    1. Glad I'm not the only crier when it comes to marathons! For the record I was nearly in tears when I found out you got that NYC guide position...just so you know!

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  5. Wake me up is such a good song! The kind of funny things is when I used to taper for swim meets it never crossed my mind that I could have put in more work or that I wasn't ready. I just did what my coach told me to and then when race day came I raced. Tapering for running races is a whole different story though. You certainly have put in the training & I have no doubt that you're going to absolutely crush this race

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    1. Wake me up is on my playlist like 2395872 times for the marathon. Can't help but smile and go with it!

      Taper in high school and college for track never really got me, nor did it get me when I started smaller races...but now...ugh taper madness in overdrive!

      Thanks for the support chicky! Can't wait to see you rip it up at NYC!

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  6. Today has been a rollar coaster day as well for me and I'm not even tapering. (same stuff). You have had a great training cycle and don't let anything tell you otherwise. I know for a darn well fact you are going to get what you want out of this race. I will be stalking you with support.

    Also dance off, pants off. I think that was a drunk motto of mine freshman year of college.

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  7. I went for a massage yesterday morning. I needed to treat my legs to some good lovin' after the increased mileage I've been doing!

    I value your honesty. I'm definitely not living on cloud #9 every day. Life is full of ups and downs.

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  8. Now you KNOW I keeps it realz on the blog. Good times and bad. I'm definitely the blogger that everyone says 'if she can do it, I can do it too.' Don't know what that says...
    Anyhoo, enjoy that taper...race that race...I thought I was the only one who cried visualizing it...
    A good pedicure and coffee with my mommy loves and I'm ready to face anything! :)

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