365 days ago I was celebrating 25 years, a whole quarter century of life. I was unsure of myself, my career path, my relationships, my friendships, and basically everything. I'm not saying I wasn't happy, because I was- but there were a lot of unknowns. Do I know any more about my life 365 days later? Maybe a little, but I am still learning each and every day. I'd be lying if I said this past year was easy, it was actually anything but easy- but it was the best year by forcing me to make hard decisions, forcing me to push myself, forcing me to take chances and make big changes.
365 days ago John and I were in a MUCH different place than we are now. Relationships have ups and downs, like anything in life. If you asked me a year ago if we would be engaged and planning our lives together, that answer absolutely would have been no. But I am grateful for the changes we have made, the chances we have taken, and the things we have worked through to get where we are. Last night we had a long amazing talk, and it's incredible to see how our relationship has grown stronger over the last year. The comfort and sense of security that comes with a love like this, is more than I ever could have imagined. There isn't talk of IF, it's WHEN. Oh, and that WHEN, is 367 days from now.
365 days ago I was working at the restaurant, nannying on the side, and applying for jobs in random fields. I had left the Nursing career path in the dust months prior, I didn't want to be one anymore and was trying to figure out which direction to go. Shortly after my birthday last year I was given an opportunity for a job, something full time with normal hours and a steady paycheck. A friend (at the time) helped me get this, and for that I am grateful. What I chose to do with the opportunity was not let it be a job, but to work hard and turn it into a career. So, yes someone took a chance on me and I had help getting started- but MY hard work and determination got me to where I am in this position now, and for that I am extremely proud.
365 days ago the 'friendships' I had were much different than the ones I have now. Hindsight really is 20/20. I believe that people come into your lives for a reason, and some are meant to stay and some are not and there is nothing wrong with that.
The friendships I have these days are more real and more important to me than any that I have before. I am very grateful for ALL of the people who have been in my life over the years, for I wouldn't be the person I am today without them. The ones who aren't in my life anymore are not bad people, and I don't regret knowing them. But something I have really come to see is that finding the RIGHT friends for what you want and need in a friendship is extremely important, and not everyone is going to fit that profile. I have found the friends that support me but not control me, the ones that tell me how it is and don't baby me, the ones I can laugh and cry with, the ones I can feel completely at ease with. Just as not everyone is the right friend for you, I know that I am not the right friend for everyone and I can appreciate that.
This past year has been a huge year for my running as well. At this time last year I was training for my 4th marathon, one that 6 months prior the doctors told me would not be possible. While 25 I demolished my half marathon PR, demolished my marathon PR, BQ'd (twice), did my first duathlon, my first triathlon, my first half ironman, broke my long standing 5k PR, and have been training better than ever before. It will be hard to top a year like that, but that just gives me more motivation to keep pushing myself :)
365 days days really isn't that long in the grand scheme of things. I'm in a very different place than I was last year, and I know that 365 days from now, I can't predict where I will be but I do know who will be by my side, and I know that I will be grateful for everything that has gotten me to that point. There isn't a number that can be determined to show how much I have changed over the last year, but I know it and the people who have stuck by me know it. I am far from perfect and made many mistakes, but I have also worked hard to better myself and to work on mending things that need it. 25 turned out to be a big year, and I am grateful for those that were a part of it.
So what's really changed?
My hair is a longer, my heart is happier, my future is brighter and I'm pretty sure my smile is bigger. 365 days in the making, and looking forward to what the next 365 has to bring. Here's to 26, the perfect year to run marathons, 26.2 at 26. (runnerd, I know).
What has been the most significant year for you so far?
Does anyone else get as reflective and sappy on their birthday as I do?